Hello everyone. It's been some time again since the last time I wrote. Typically I think of something to write, and then I'm too tired. Or I have the computer up and in front of me, but I just can't think of anything important going on.
Currently: eating minestrone soup and drinking pepsi (lunch). Wearing gap jeans and a blue sweater (Kohls, one of my fave sweaters).
Just went and signed a lease for May 2009-April 2010. I was having serious commitment cold feet, but I figured that I should just do it (you know, like Nike). I mean, that was a pretty big thing for a place that I've only seen once and a roommate that I've only met once. But as soon as Elise (roomie) picked me up, it began. We were yapping (she's a talker) and she likes country music! We really have a lot in common - I think this is going to work out beautifully. Fun facts: Elise is 27, has two cats, works full time and goes to grad school. She's from Michigan and is a Packer fan.
And I think it's more than irony that we got together to sign the lease today. Last night I was having worrisome thoughts wondering if Chicago is the place for me. I mean, I haven't met a real friend yet. I feel like I miss out on so much back home, just not being with the fam or friends. Which is why God has set it up so that Elise and I would be together today.
Speaking of which ... I just finished the book, the Shack by WP Young. Bill had suggested it to me a while ago, but you can never really trust Bill's book judgement (especially since he hardly ever finishes them). But I saw it was a best seller or something from Barnes and Noble, and thought I should give it a try. And I am glad that I did. It was under the "Religious Fiction" section, so that should tell you a bit about it. It didn't "get" me until the end, and it was about forgiveness and righting the wrongs in relationships. This has made me want to go back to every person that I thought has ever wronged me, and forgive them. Or apologize to those who think that I have wronged them. It made me really think about how I treat people and how I act. This is a little deep, and it's probably hard for you to believe this. Especially if you knew me in my "Cold-Hearted Bitch" and "Honest Sunday" days. I think I've really grown up a lot, and learned a lot about myself and this ugly/beautiful world.
Now, back to the everyday, there have been layoffs on my team. YIKES. I made the cut, thank goodness, but I'm sure this isn't the end. We think they are going to wait until late summer and if things haven't improved, do some more. I still stand by the fact that it is completely out of my hands, and the best thing I can do is do my job.
I guess my biggest flaw is that I'm not really a proactive person. I like to sit around and wait for something to happen, and then react to it. I like someone else to make the decisions. You can spin this to a positive by saying it's being relaxed, laid back or easy to get along with. But what really am I going to get done by waiting on others? I don't like to make big decisions, but I'm terrified of the outcome if I don't.
Happy Birthday, Marley! She's 19, holy moly. I didn't do anything for St. Patrick's Day. That weekend Justin and I went back to Wisco to see his friend who is home from Afghanistan. It was pretty uneventful. Maybe I will add some pics on this from the weekend.
Yep, so that's all for now. See you next time, same bat time, same bat channel. <3
